There seems to be something growing ...that I cannot label, nor easily explain or identify.

It just seems to happen ...like water seems to find its way downhill, and this also seems to work towards a lower point.

I don't believe it is always unconscious ...though it seems it often is.

But, though it is often an emotional defense with seemingly instinctual nature ...it really is something even more, which we can't quite seem to understand.

It seems to gain speed, or confidence, or perhaps simply familiarity and comfort in the fact that it seems to work ...at least for the interim.